Ready Set Go! Here comes 2013!

I really hate making resolutions because I never keep them.  I have so much I need to work on in 2013.  On the weight loss front, I have maintained the same weight (give or take 5lbs) for the entire year.  Not cool.  I did make a list of some things that I hope to start and carry through all of 2013.

*Log all food – I got a day planner to carry around.  I have tried my fitness pal but I prefer good old hand written notes!

*Post a weekly weigh-in on my Blog!  This also includes getting better about blogging in general.

*I always have a ticker on my blog for minutes of exercise but rarely make my goal.  I am going to aim for a minimum of 1000 minutes per month.  That is really only 17 hours of exercise a month.  I have to be able to do that!!

Small steps!!

I have an appointment with another band Dr. on the 8^th.  I am done with True Results.  I am hoping the consult goes well and that everything works out insurance wise!

Have a safe and Happy NEW YEAR!!

xoxo

I need to commit to this journey.......

But I can't seem to make that happen!

I signed up for Z's Holiday Challenge and I would really really really like to be to onederland but the end of this one - 2/13/13.  I just can't get my shit together.... I need to work out.... I have to work out.....  I cannot drag myself to the gym!!  I am so tired at the end of the day I just have zero energy! I need to eat better but I cannot keep the junk out of my mouth.

If I have more than one area of stress I cannot seem to do anything........  Holidays - bah humbug!

Todays weigh-in 221.2

Accomplishment!

So today was the final weigh-in for Specks Challange!  I lost a total of 1.8 lbs!!  No no no, that is not my accomplishment.

I did a mud/obstacle run a few weeks ago. I was really really scared and intimidated by it!  In the end, I had a lot of fun and challenged myself both physically and mentally (fear of heights, tight spaces)!  Sure I walked a lot of it, skipped a few of the obstacles (the under ground tunnel you had to crawl through - could not handle the claustrophobia), and it took me an hour and 36 minutes but I FINISHED!!!!  The lesson is don't assume you can't do something - It is often easier than you think!

They emailed pics today - here is the link (I couldn't copy the pictures) !!! I look huge and mud soaked clothes are NOT flattering!  BUT I finished!!!! Here is the proof :)

http://www.racephotonetwork.com/QPPlus/Proofs.aspx

PS - do not wear stretchy yoga pants for this type of thing!!  They get muddy and HEAVY!!!

Weigh-In

Starting Weight: 222.4
Today's Weight: 220.4

No change.  Totally my fault.  I have been stress eating and making poor choices such as Halloween candy!

Halloween Picture Post!

I can't get these in order but you get the idea. Mya (Palomalu) and her friends went as football players (obviously) which was cute. They got a ton of candy and had an awesome time :)

Weigh-In!

Starting Weight: 222.4
Today's Weight: 220.4

Fall Challenge Weigh-in

Starting Weight: 222.4
Today's Weight: 221.4

Busy Busy

The fall craziness has begun!! Mya has had soccer tournament weekends two weekends in a row.  We had company from Wednesday to Sunday and now we are watching my friends daughter for 3 days because her mom is out of town for work. Kuddos to those of you with multiple kids - I have a hard time keeping up with one!!! ! 

A couple of pictures :) Here is a defense one of Mya!!  Gotta love having a photographer soccer mom on our team!

I keep thinking that if I wear a scarf maybe fall weather will show up???? - SIGH -

 

It is another happy shoe day! haha

And here is a picture of my most favorite god-daughter Jordan - her mom is my BFF and they visited from TX this past weekend - miss them so so much!!

Neon Splash Dash tomorrow - I am excited!! :) Have a lovely weekend all!!! xo

Fatty Likes a Challenge!!

So we will try this again!!  I signed up for Speck's - Let the Weight Fall Off Challenge.  Here we go!!! 

Starting Weight 222.4.

This picture below is the story of my life!  Time to get it done!

Perking up (I think)....

Thanks for all the encouraging words!!  :) You guys always make me feel better!!!

Now for some randomness!

I am wearing happy shoes today - sorry for some reason, the picture would not copy, just the link!
http://instagr.am/p/P17R0NK9Ye/

I LOVE Birchbox!  It is a monthly sample box of make-up, skin care, hair stuff, nail polish!  My Sept box came yesterday!  Love trying new stuff! It is $10.00 prezzy to myself every month.  You all should check it out :) Also, a shamless plug cause I get points if you join....  Seriously, it is wonderful though!!

www.birchbox.com


I think next week, I am going to start going through my closet and varying my outfits.  I think that putting more effort in will perk me up....  I mean, I put make-up on, dress ok, etc. but I tend to stick with the normal black pants and a cardigan.  I will post pics, we shall see how it goes :)

Have a great weekend!!!

PS very jealous of all those going to Chicago - hopefully next year :) 




  

TTT (or my personal rant session......)

1. Mya hurt her back at soccer.  I feel bad and hope it heels quickly!! she can't get comfortable isnt sleeping well.  Dr. says it is minor so hopefully this will be over soon!
2. Marcus (the boxer), my fur baby has a very swollen ear flap.  Upon googling, I think he has a hematoma that can be cause by excessive ear scratching flapping.....  He has bad allergies and even though he takes allergy meds, he is always itching his ears....  Poor guy!!  Also pretty sure that the cure for the swelling situation is surgery..... $$$$ :(  
3. Husbands car battery died this morning....
4. I am beyond irritated with my husband lately for numerous reasons.  Mostly because I feel that I put is way more effort in everything then he does. 
5. Been training new people at work.  This always sucks when they come in with the feeling they are more experienced than you.
6. I have been gaining and losing the same four pounds for what seems like an eternity.
7. I would like to scream and throw things but that would be a bit dramatic!
8. YUP - I said this was a rant :)
9. I am finally to the point where I think I enjoy exercise!!!
10. Have a lovely day! 

Have a great Weekend!!! :)

Ten Things Thursday!

1.Had a good loss this week!! Bout time!!
2.A fellow AZ blogger is leading the BOOBs Challenge over all!  She is kicking major azz!!!  Nice job Jen!
3.Another AZ bloggers meet-up this weekend!  I am excited!
4.I got a teatnus booster yesterday... My arm hurts like a motha!
5.I heard this on the radio yesterday.... DISTURBING! 
6.I wanna go home!  I am over today!
7.In case no one has noticed, I am a huge overuser of punctuations "!!!!" ":)" and so on.  Sorry if it is annoying! :) haha
8.The weekend can't come soon enough!
9.I think that is it!
10. Happy Friday Eve!

AZ Bloggers Meet-up

I had an amazing time hanging out with all of the lovely AZ ladies!!!  It is awesome to spend time with people who get it!!  I look forward to doing it again in September :) :)

I spent a lot of time obsessing about my chub in the group picture (next time I will not be sitting in the front :)..... Then I found a before picture - Ill take the current chub.

I gained....

and I don't really have an explanation for it....

I worked out 5 of 7 days.
I ate under 1500 cals - every day.
I drank a crap ton of water.
I watched my sodium.

I am confused....  I am really upset.

BUT

I am going to focus on....

*My energy level is a lot higher
*My mood is better and more stable
*I am sleeping better
*My work clothes are fitting better (another reason I thought for sure there was a good loss)
*3 people at work have asked if I lost more weight

Have a great one ladies :)

The Gym

I have decided that I like group fitness classes - no matter how much I suck, I have too much pride to quit so it is a sure fire way to make me stay at the gym and sweating for an hour. I have absolutely no rhythm - none, nada but I have been doing Zumba... After a few weeks, I thought that I had shaken the I look like a fat idiot with no rhythm feeling and then last Wed I go and my daughter's old teacher is teaching the class a several other teachers from her school are there.... Awkward but oh well over it - I am there for me, not anyone else.

I have been to the gym 5 times since last boobs weigh-in. I am really really hoping the scales reflects my efforts.  I have avoided it all week - not even a peek!

I am hear to tell you (mostly tell myself) that you have to workout to be successful - I know that all of you do.  I did not workout for a year after surgery and it was a really big shock to find out that I couldn't even do the workouts that I could do at 267lbs!! Heres to moving forward!

TTT!

1. It is 68 degrees in my office - I am currently wearing two sweaters and a blanket...  It is 100 outside!  WTHeck!!
2.I am sick of the heat/humidity.... this summer has seemed extra bad to me. I have lived here all my life and have not been this effect by it.
3. I am having a staycation this weekend with one of my besties.  I am excited. I hope it doesn't rain on Saturday..... Any other day is fine.
4. I am getting a fill on the 23rd - I need it big time!
5. There needs to be a way to ingest lots of water and not have to pee every five minutes!! 
6. Having a 10.5 year old girl is emotionally exhausting - she is super emotional about everything!!! I love her more than anything in this world and I am terrified for the teenage years! 
7. I decided to take a leave of absence from my masters program.  I think I need a break and I am having too much trouble trying to balance everything.  Right now I need to focus on family and weight loss. 
8. Group exercise is proving to be the best workout for me.  No matter how much I don't want to go, I my pride wont let me quit.
9. I'm cold..... in case I forgot to mention that.... FREEZING is a better word actually.
10. Common weekend!

HAPPY FRIDAY EVE!!

Starbucks - Chipolte Chicken Bistro Box

I left my lunch on the counter today and grabbed this when I got my coffee this morning!!  This was really good and it is bandster size (in real life).  I didn't eat the tortillas b/c I have issues with tortillas in general. 

http://www.starbucks.com/menu/food/bistro-boxes/chipotle-chicken-wraps-bistro-box

Nutrition Facts Per Serving (187 g)

Calories 290	Calories from Fat 110
	% Daily Value*
Total Fat 12g	19%
Saturated Fat 4.5g	22%
Trans Fat 0g
Cholesterol 50mg	17%
Sodium 840mg	37%
Total Carbohydrate 26g	9%
Dietary Fiber 5g	20%
Sugars 4g
Protein 19g

Urgh!

Switching your BC pill and antidepressant at the same time (even if your dr thinks it is beneficial) = mental mess! :(

Ten Things Thursday - My First

1. I need to change my profile to say that I am 31 instead of 30... I don't want to.....
2. Mya is at a sleep over. I miss her. The old she gets the less she misses mommy :(
3. Meeting some az bandsters in person in a few weeks - quite exciting.
4. Made it to the gym two days in a row... Let's hope I stick to it.
5. I am addicted to the Olympics!!!!
6. I have insomnia.....
7. I'm happy tomorrow is Friday. I am over this week.
8. As of Monday I will be the parent of a 5th grader... Weird.
9. I have way to much to do at work tomorrow and I am dreading it... Probably has something to do with me not being able to sleep.
10. Loving the Boobs challenge and all the support and constant reminders to keep plugging along.

Motivation? Yes, please :)

What's Your #1 Workout Song!?!

I need some new tunes!! Suggestions :)

Short Term Goals - One Down

I joined the gym last night!!

Chug chug!

Crazy Arizona Monsoons!!!!!

I have lived here all my life and have not ever felt like I was being swallowed by the dust!!!!

More pics!

San Diego Vacation Pictures

A little nap on the way there :)

Mya and the Hubby! He is not as scary as he looks! 

Me and Mya!

Happy girl found the beach!

We stopped by the Olympic Training Center in Chula Vista.  Super cool!

We had originally scheduled for a soccer tournament but that was canceled but a few of us still went on vacation and met up.  Love these girlies!

View from our room.....

Love this pic!

A Fatty's Heaven (or HELL) and NSV!

Yesterday, my boss hired a hot dog cart to come to our work and serve hot dogs, chips, soda, ice cream and other deliciousness..... It was there for almost 5 hours - I am proud to say that I did not partake in any of it!!!  It was definitely hard but in the end I know I felt better not doing it.  One small victory at a time :)

Challange! and a SCARY NUMBER!!

So I am not going to Chicago but I am going to do the Chicago or Bust Challenge (mostly because there is a super cute button ;))!

My weigh-in........ 220.6 HOLY S***!!!!  Time to buck up and turn it around! NO EXCUSES!

My challenge goal is 199 - lofty but in reach i think. Prize - iPhone!!

Lets do this! 

Confessions, Admissions and Resetting!

I have had a very hard time coming up with a post lately.  Mostly because I am in a bad place – this is going to be a long post but I just need to get it all out.

First a weigh-in (post vacation) – 217.6 eeeekkkkk!!!!! After a glorious week of vacation in San Diego, I expected a gain.  Vacation was a great reset for me.  It was nice to have some time just to pretend that the world does not exist.  

First some band discussion….  I am not sure that my body agrees with me having placed a foreign object in it.  Ever since I have gotten the band, I have had some sort of abdominal pain.  I have always excused it to something else, recovery time, gall bladder surgery, etc.  The pain varies sometimes it is just a twitch sometimes it is unbearable.  A couple of weeks ago, I went to see my surgeon because I was having severe pain in my port area… I could have sworn that my port had actually dislocated.   After a 1cc un-fill and barium swallow, they sent me to the ER thinking that it could be pancreatitis because the band looked good.  After blood work and a CT scan there is nothing apparently wrong.  However, my port area is still really really hurting!  I can’t even touch it.  I have an endoscopy scheduled for the 30^th just to make sure everything is good.  Since having my band placed, I have not been able to do an AB workout and I don’t think this is normal?  I love my band and greatly appreciate what it has helped me do but I am concerned.

After coming home from vacation, I realized that there is no way that I can do everything at 100%.  I have been trying to balance parenting, work, school, health, etc.  The result of this has been not taking care of my health.  Prior to having my surgery, the psychologist told me that I would have to put myself first in order to succeed at this……  I have such a hard time doing this but if I am going to lose anymore weight, I am going to have to.  This may mean taking a leave from school and at this point, I am ok with that.  Working less is not an option at this point. 

I CANNOT LET THIS OPPORTUNITY THAT THE BAND HAS GIVEN ME SLIP AWAY!!!!  I am worried that I am on the verge of this happening and it scares the shit out of me! Stress eating remains a HUGE problem.  I have had no time and have not been planning meals.  I located overeaters anonymous in my area and I am going to attend that meeting this week.  

My problem is when life gets overwhelming, things in my head start spiraling out of control.  Depression and anxiety get take control and I shut down.  This is a really big confession for me because the ONLY person that knows this about me is my husband....... I have OCD.  It has been a lifelong battle. I am usually ok when but if the stress level gets too high the obsessions I cannot control thinking about the obsessions (people dying, losing my job, gaining weight and so on) once that happens, I lose my control over the compulsions (knocking on wood, hand washing, obsessively praying).  This really tests my ability to keep a handle on life.  It is hard to explain and I hope no one totally thinks that I am a freak now!!!!  I made a commitment to be complexly honest with myself and others.  Talking about OCD is a part of that (for me anyway). 

 I am pushing that reset button again!!!  So here were go….. Trying to start my second year of the band best foot forward.

Have a great weekend all!!!! :) :)

One year bandiversary!!!!

Today has been one year since I was banded. Thoughts, pictures, etc. to follow :)

Another Birthday Down!

Last Year.....

This year.....

Weigh-In

I weighed in this morning at 213.4 up .6 lbs since my last weigh-in.

Head Hunger!

This has literally been torture lately!!!  I have been under work stress and home stress and it is like the constant desire to eat is just the icing on the cake (HA).  Any tips for coping and not being miserable!  Food addiction is a difficult thing to conquer.

SCHOOL HELP PLEASE :)

Does anyone work in a leadership role in healthcare or know someone who does??  If so is there any way that you/they could answer some interview questions for me?  Very quick and simple! 

Thank you!!!

Happy Mother's Day!

A BIG Happy Mother's Day to all you mama's out there :)

New Blog Design - Love Love Love

A big thanks to Jen at Just Foolin Blog Designs for the make over!!!  I adore it :)

BYOC!

It’s Friday fun day! That means it’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy - brought to us by Draz!!! We answer a few questions to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break. Copy to your own blog if you so desire and have fun!


1. Are you a “wake up on the first beep of the alarm clock” or a “hit the snooze button 50 times before you get up” kind of person? Is your alarm clock set to the right time?

I hit snooze every 5 minutes for about 30 minutes.  I am not a good sleeper so I hate getting out of bed in the morning.

2. Do you decorate for any holidays other than Christmas?

Usually just Christmas – unless we were to have a party for the holiday at our house, then I will.

3. Would you consider yourself a spontaneous fly by the seat of your pants kind of person or a massive OCD controlling planner kind of person or someone in between?

OCD for sure – I cannot handle not knowing!!

4. Tell me some of your MUST have hair products that you use consistently….you know - share your “hair routine”.

Pureology shampoo and conditioner – expensive but they last forever.  Great for helping color last! I usually let my hair air dry for a curly/wavy look – lions main.  Sometimes I will go straight on the weekends but I have a crap ton of hair so it takes foreva!

5. Repeat question: How was your week and what are your upcoming weekend plans?

Week was up and down!  Work still sucks!  I started working out and that is improving my mood. Got a fill yest so I am hoping that will help with hunger.  Jen is redoing my Blog and I am super stoked!!  As for the weekend, soccer tomorrow and then Sunday is Mom’s day and my hubby’s bday so I am sure that will be fun.  Really hoping to see Avengers – I love me some super hero movies!