Wednesday, June 29, 2011

The dreaded before pics........

Really I don't know what the dread is in posting these - people look at me every day! I guess this just means really owning it!

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Ok here goes.....

I am new to this whole blog thing...  Thought I would try it out....  Share my random thoughts...  I am scheduled for LapBand Surgery on June 30, 2011.  Started my pre-op diet three days ago.  Must say that it is a bit of a struggle and we shall leave it at that!

A little about me - I'm first and foremost a mom and wife!  I love my daughter more than words, she is the center of my world! I cherish my friends - they are my FAMILY!  I work for a law firm in Phoenix, Arizona.... love shopping.  I turned 30 on Friday! :) I decided at 30 that instead of being mopey, I would make changes - permanent changes.

Inside v. Outside - mine don't match.   It is that feeling of I'm awesome and then seeing a picture that is not quite as flattering....  Don't get me wrong, my self-esteem is ok - there are just things that we all think we can work on.  I like who I am, my outer shell just doesn't reflect that person very well right now.

I decided on LapBand not because of what is wrong with me now but because of what could be wrong with me if I don't change my ways...  Both of my parents have Type II Diabetes, my father actually passed away from complications related to his diabetes.  My mom has heart problems and my family has a history of strokes.  Not to mention all the consequences of being overweight. I want to be around for my daughter and I want her to have a healthy example to look up to! So here I am scheduled for surgery, nervous, hopeful, terrified, excited and so on...

Oddly enough, I am not a sharer - I tend to keep my thoughts, emotions, and struggles to myself.  It is not that I don't have an awesome support system because I do, I just like to be the supporter and have trouble being supported so to speak.  I am hoping that this blog will be a way for me to get things out.  So here goes nothing...... :)