1. A BIG thank you to Jen at Just Foolin Blog Designs for giving me this super cute new blog! I love it and it makes me happy every time I look at it.
2. I am supposed to have a fill tomorrow and I am scared. I am completely TERRIFIED of having the band be to tight. I am satisfied with a 1/2-3/4 cups of food; however, it only lasts about two hours. If I eat any more than that, I do have pain. Also no matter what I eat or drink I get pain in my left shoulder (similar to the gas pain after surgery).
3. I read Lap Band Gal's post this a.m. as well as Cat's comments on her blog about being embarrassed or ashamed about weight loss surgery. At first I went from telling (well asking opinions from) everybody. I thought I needed everyone's opinion of what to do. You have those who say you don't need it (whatever - liars), those who say whatever you want to do, etc. I never thought there was a stigma associated it until I mentioned it to this one girl at work. Funny thing was - she makes comments about my weight all the time so I really thought she would be supportive but her response was "I think you are taking the lazy way out". I couldn't believe it. Now, this girl is generally very crass and kinda trashy so usually take what she said with a grain of salt, but this stung a bit. I mean for gosh sake I have been on some sort of diet every day of my life, worked out lost 70lbs, gained it back etc. So after that I decided I was going to tell nobody else because I didn't want people to think that I am as she said taking the lazy way out. I never told her that I actually went through with the surgery - only that I was thinking about it. Little does anyone know this is sooooooo far away from the easy way out! It is hard, the surgery is painful, you have to be just as committed as before to diet and exercise and so on. Since the surgery, I have decided that I do not give a rats bum who knows or what they think (trying not to anyway). I made this decision for me and my family, I know I am not lazy.
On a side note, I didn't tell my mom until the night before, we don't have the best relationship at all but she was watching my daughter while I was at the surgery center. She is not supportive at all she is basically silent (her way of passive/aggressively showing disapproval) about the whole thing. What REALLY upset me is that my daughter was crying the day of the surgery - which I think it was normal for her to be nervous - but my mom calls me later and says "I just hope you know that you make a very emotionally traumatizing decision for your daughter" WHAT! I'm thinking I just did this for my daughter! Come to find out, I am in the car with my daughter and she tells me "mom Grandma showed me all about your surgery online.... but your cuts don't look like that persons". Well come to find out my mom let her read all about gastric bypass hence her fear and tears. So frustrating. SO SORRY FOR THE RANT!
Point being - I am NOT embarrassed or ashamed! :)