So Mya and I started the C25K today.... I must admit I had to cut the jogging to 30 second after the first two 60 second sessions. I think it will get easier and it FINALLY dropped below 100 degrees and was breezy here in Phoenix this evening!!!! I hope fall is coming! And that I can become a runner :)
I have not been in the best mood lately. I am not sure what the cause. I think that in my "real life" I may feel unsupported about this lap band decision. I think that people are supportive but they don't understand. Hell, only two on my "real life" friends know about my blog. Not even my BFF.... she knows about the surgery but not about the Blog. This leads me to wonder why I am so secretive, why I don't want to share. I think it basically comes down to the fact that I don't want to be judged. I am scared, I want everyone to like me, I want to be accepted. This odd because I think for the most part I am accepted, liked and so on. In most of my relationships, I am the supporter, the listener, the fixer. I am everyone's "best friend". But I have no clue how to open up and let people in. I absolutely hate talking about myself. What all this is leading too is that i feel alone in this journey. My husband is not in super supportive mood either... he doesn't read my blog which makes me sad in a way.
Everybody judges in there own way, how much have you lost, you look good, you don't see a difference..... What happens if I stop losing then what will people think? I did this for nothing?
Anyway, I want to snack - not b/c there is room in my stomach for it but because I am stressed. Life is so busy, work is horrible and I used to deal with that by eating..... Now, I could deal with it by talking but it takes a lot for me to talk to anyone about my feelings. Urgh!
My weekend my uneventful. My little one had a busy social calendar as usual :) Makes me happy. 9/11 is always a hard day. I can't believe it was 10 years ago already! I will never forget!! The munchkin was ready for football watching with dad:
And I figured I would give you a pic of our lazy boxer Marcus!!!
Have a great week all!! :)