Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Happy Tuesday!

Thank you all so much for the support and prayers.  My mom is at home resting.  They did a cardiac cathiterazation (sp) which found some blockages that they fixed.  I appreciate all the support.

I am so excited that I have 75 followers!!  Thank you!!! :)

So I know I was not supposed to weigh-in but I did this morning.  I have been pretty anxious about life so I figured I could allow myself that...... So as of today my weight is 228.4. 

I really tend to get upset and down around the holidays and it usually starts around Halloween time.  I am not a negative person but my thinking tends to operate in a way that I am constantly waiting for bad things to happen.  The reason in that in summer of 1999 I got really sick and almost bled to death from a hemorrhage. Then on 11/15/99, I got a call first thing in the morning saying that my mom had a massive heart attack and was in ICU.  On 11/16/11, first thing in the morning that my father had passed away.  During this time my brother was in juvenile prison.  I am not sharing this as a sob story - really no one who knows me except long term friends even know this about me. I don't often share my stress but I am sharing just because this past week sent me in to a downward sprial and I just needed to vent.  My mind is back on high alert that nothing is certain.

Have a good day!


  1. Oh geez. Luckily, all of life's heartaches have come at me at different times of the year (except my b'day - my b'day has ALWAYS been UNlucky) so I don't have seasons of anxiety. You know your pattern here though and while it's tough to keep your chin up, just keep thinking positive and keep thinking that this will be the year that everything is fine. Hang in there sweetie!

  2. Glad your mom is back to being in good health, and try to keep the faith this month! Hope it's a good one.

  3. It sounds like your mom is in good hands.
    It is tough to fight the stress but try to find a good outlet (not food). I will keep you and your mom in my thoughts.

  4. Well hopefully now your mom will have many more years ahead of her.

    I'm sorry you have gone through hard times. I have a feeling it has made you a very strong person. :)

  5. Glad your Mom is doing better. Keep your chin up girlfriend!

  6. Winter is a tough time for me, too. I miss my sunglight but I love the fact that I can be outdoors and it isn't so bloody hot! :) Keep on doing a great job!

  7. I am happy to hear your Mom is feeling better. I'm not sure why things happen this time of year, but know you're not alone. I too go up and down for various reasons - all too similar to your reasons. Although it is a cliche, we just need to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward - however slow that may be..

    ((((hugggsss)))) to you....